I’ve been hurtling through life lately, feeling a bit like I’ve been running blind, like I’ve been existing in a whirlwind of time and passing days.
Moreover, I’ve felt a strong calling, a pull even closer towards the Universe; a pull even closer towards my Self.
And so, I’ve been filling my heart, mind, and soul with strong desires.
Everything in life comes full circle, and I strongly believe that things happen for a reason. Even more powerful, I believe that we are the creator of our own experience. If we aren’t happy, if we feel less than satisfied, we have the power to change that!
It is easy to blame our fears upon the negative afflictions of our past. To allow a certain moment in time to hold us back, frozen in its very clutches. We try to move forward, but we are simply inhibited, controlled by the terror of what it means to actually break free.
When the demons haunt us, it is because we are not yet ready to face the lesson. Maybe we understand part of the lesson, but we have not yet come to fully embrace it. We have not yet done the healing required to turn the lesson into wisdom. And so, we barricade ourselves behind great walls of self defense, building a little fortress in which to keep us safe, and protected.
It is a maneuver that buys us time. Time to heal. Time to understand. Time to grow. But if we are not careful, if we choose to dwell on the pain, we become in jeopardy of finding ourselves locked behind those walls forever.
This is what she wants most in the world…to continue bouncing from one day to the next, feeling like she is floating in a constant and never-breaking state of oblivion. The feeling of being lost – oh, how she thrives relentlessly upon this feeling.
Tumbling down hills, crawling through trenches, being kicked when you are already down; being covered in mud does something ethereal indeed. Soul-cleansing. Anger-releasing. Positive-thought reinforcing.